Guys..

It has been so hard to get back into my usual schedule with everything..

Like.. I know I’ve been sick for the majority of the last three months and have just been trying not to die from either coughing or not being able to breathe through my nose or whatever.. but.. I cannot believe how hard it is to try to keep up with my normal load right now. Just my work day wears me out quite a bit still and with how behind I got on everything I have mountains of catch up.

We always have to remember, though, that it’s just one step at a time and you just put in your best and keep going. The heaps of stuff that piled up, that I’m now trying to dig out of (especially when I can’t do my usual amount) is quite daunting and at times I am feeling a little overwhelmed despite my efforts not to, but I am just putting one foot in front of the next. I am trying to listen as best I can to my body and how things are flowing in life to make the best calls for how to get everything back on track, and I am just prioritizing everything and knocking as much as I can off without overdoing it.

It’s kind of slow going on a lot of it, but I do see the efforts paying off and with not pushing things I don’t feel as anxious or worn out as I usually would in these situations. It feels good to just let things flow and let whatever I accomplish be enough. I have a tendency to think about it the wrong way. I will look at how many things I am not getting done instead of just how much I did tackle. It has been a long journey in changing my perspective, but I really am noticing the huge difference that it makes.

So lately I turn my music up and try to make each task as much fun as possible instead of letting myself get frustrated with if things are taking “too long” to complete. I remind myself more often of how much I have gotten done and let myself celebrate those things instead of looking at all I’m not getting done as a negative thing. I remind myself that most things can wait until tomorrow. There are many important things that you should not be putting off until tomorrow because you might never get to them, but don’t fret not getting through all the little things that life seems to demand from us. In the end those things won’t matter. So take care of yourself and make time to fully spend time with your loved ones. Do your best each day and let yourself be satisfied with that. Push yourself but know when it’s the right time for that push and when to stop pushing. Be a force to be reckoned with without trying to force things. Let the flow of the ups and downs carry you on the beautiful journey this life has in store for you and take time to enjoy the views.

Lots of love,

-S